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the scariest day of my life is tomorrow. i can't wait for that day to be over. so that it brings me closer to knowing the outcomes. the nerves are going to drive me insane. i can't wait to just know what i made.�will it be JV? Varisty? Jesus Christ i'm beyond nervous, this is making me insanely scared.

SOFTBALL TRYOUTS

"If you're alone, I'll be your shadow. If you want to cry, I'll be your shoulder. If you want a hug, I'll be your pillow. If you need to be happy, I'll be your smile. But anytime you need a friend, I'll just be me." ~Author Unknown~

I decided upon this quotation because it shows what friends are to one another.

For me personally, when I'm alone, you are my shadow. When I want to cry, you are my shoulder. Want a hug, you are my pillow. Need to be happy, you are my smile. When I need a friend, you are you.

I have many that take on these de scriptions from time to time. I'm grateful for them every day of my life. I seriously don't know how many times I say thank you, to my friends, to God even, for my wonderful friends.

I know I continually say how wonderful my friends are, but I can't get over how blessed I am to have them. People have told me that they are thankful to have me in their lives, that they are blessed, but they're not the ones that are. I am.

I can't stop saying how wonderful, amazing, magnificent my friends are, because when I think they can't do anymore as a friend, I'm yet again surprised. Th lengths my friends have gone for me, to make sure that I'm happy with life, or just to be sure that I'll be ok with something that's going on in my life, is astounding.

I completely agree with that saying, "Friends are angels in disguise sent down from heaven." I agree with this because I have never felt safer, more loved, more content, happy than when I'm with my friends, ones who know me, know when i'm lying about how I'm feeling, ones who just know me and how I operate. Also this saying, "Love is blind, but friendship is clairvoyant." Friendship is clairvoyant because friends know when one is lying to them about something.

I love my friends with every fiber of my being. I don't know where I'd be without them. They are seriously my shadow, my shoulder, my pillow, my smile, and they are my friend.

"How do you measure a year in the life?" In daylights, in sunsets, in midnights, in cups of coffee, in inches, in miles, in laughter, in strife, in fivehundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes...
Measure in LOVE

"Remember a year in the life of friends."

With everyday that passes her by,

She lets out an exausted sigh...

Only to think she once new love,

But it died like that lonely white dove...

A piece of her has died,

The gap inside her heart so wide...

If only she had known,

Maybe then she would'nt be all alnoe...

I guess it's possible to worry about more things, I thought I'd reached 'critical mass' on worries but nope, there's room for more!

California has opened that 'can of worms' again. I'm referring to the marriage equality issue. It gets my blood going when I listen to the bigots. I can't understand why it's so important to them to keep people from being married.�I saw this lady on the news yesterday, she'd gone to city hall to protest (she's a yes for the ban) and when asked why she chose to say that it's for her kids to know the truth, that marriage is only for a man and a woman, not...yada-yada-yada. Heard that before, shut up!!

My thought is this: What is that woman going to think/say/do if one of her presious kids wants to marry a same sex person?

I don't think she's considering that. I've talked with people that want the ban and aren't able to answer that question for me. I guess they must be just crossing their fingers against that happening.

I believe that a popular vote, and a�narrow lead at that, shouldn't decide to take away any of our rights. This has been proven in history to be wrong, interracial marriage for instance. The majority voted against that too! Our culture naturally evolves and over time we change.

The arguement that it's about the word 'marriage' and�that same sex couples shouldn't be able to have that word�because it's somehow sacred. That is total BS, the only sacred marriage is the one you get in a church! Everyone else is just plain legally�married!

I am so irratated by this whole thing, it dominates my thoughts when I let it. I have done what I can to help open the hearts and minds of people around me. I've donated to the larger cause so now I just wait.

so just wanted to say that i came out to almost all of my imediate family. it feels like a lot of weights have been lifted and the support that i got from all of them has been pretty good. only my sister rose cried.... i knew she would she cries for everything. she was the one i was worried about telling but she was pretty fine with it. i just texted her and told her. she just told me i have always been supportive of her so she is gonna always do the same for me and yada yada. she was a little upset that i had told a lotofpeople before her...only 3 but i was just like rose theyre all gay. of course i would tell them first. i needed that support behind me. ok well im gonna cut this short cause im using my phone and i cant type as well as i can on the computer so yeah. ill talk to yall later! oh so total ummm 6 people know. 3 sisters 1 bro and 2 cuz. need to tell my bro and parents...well see how that goes.

at this moment in time i am not speaking to my parents this is because even at my age they think they can rule my life .this is something which i have just gone along with for too long till i finnaly told them just how they did wreck my life when i was younger i got a lot of things of my chest but now i miss my dad who i must say was not the one who caused me the sorrow i feel inside .the biggest dissapointment is my mother and i just cant get round this i cant forgive and forget i thought i could but i cant she betrayed my trust and just cant look at her in the same way any more .why should i lilve with her guilt but again i have to stay queit for the sake of others i love my dad but i cant see him with out seeing her so i guess for now i stay away and say nothing for fear the truth will spill out and destroy every thing .

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